Stopping Reflection...

I have often wondered whether I would be much better off if I didn't reflect so much. There are people who seem to reflect very shallowly, or better yet, in a very goal-oriented focused way, and they seem to be generally very happy and very very productive. They have built up and unquestionably gone along with structures of reflection that avoid asking dangerous questions.

I don't have this...perhaps intrinsically. I am currently SET in being at this job. It is stressing me out though and at times I am most stressed out and frustrated I get reflective and when I get reflective I try really hard to not reflect and face the facts of the matter, that I might be better off without the job, with quitting. The fact I am avoiding considering and reflecting on whether that might be true (this is totally analgous to not wanting to reflect on the possibility and truths around whether christianity exists), is apparent to me. Others, I bet, never are granted the insight they are STOPPING themselves or manipulating their reflection....tricking them into only seeing the positives or only having the positives as options to see...

ughhh...

I gave myself years to reflect though and really don't have a lot to show for it...years to consider the truth, whatever it may be...this isn't the answer (I don't think).